Week 3 project development. 12.02.20
Below are the two images that I have chosen from the previous post showing the full selection.
These images are a commentary on me, as a woman, as a mother, as a home educator, the state of my ‘self’ trying to do the MA, home educating the children, getting one through levels, one through GCSE’s, getting them all to their groups and clubs, struggling with not working on my business because I am too busy, whilst simultaneously doing drives for my husbands long distance taxi company because we are so broke from me not working ….. it is all rolled up into these images ……
Fig 1 is of our shed which is battered and broken and leaning precariously after the recent storms. It represents the ‘building site’ our house currently is, and the anxiety for how that makes me feel. It is also a commentary on how I feel like our whole house is in this precarious balancing act at the moment, and could topple at any minuet with just another blow.
Fig 2 is of the room that I was setting up to do the ‘reward chart shoot’ tableau in. It too, is a commentary on how I am feeling in myself at the moment. The bare just plastered walls , the floor still dirty from work being done on the house, the dodgy electrics. The ‘school room’ set up, that looks all aesthetic and pretty, with beautiful maps and books, and the irony of learning about the world, whilst those shadows make you feel claustrophobic , and the juxtaposition of that with the light streaming in from the outside, and the open door. The distortion of the lens, along with the angle I have shot the image at heightens this sense of claustrophobia , and also how our whole family is focused to a pinpoint of learning at the moment. The irony of learning about the outside world, whilst being encaged by our partaking in the ‘system’ of degrees, and a-levels , and GCSE’s , and the deep rooted desire for us to all run out of that door and escape this self imposed ‘torture’. The door still open, the empty chair, and the book, all looking like this room has just been abandoned by someone in a hurry, could imply that someone has just got up and just left, and is definitely a representation of what my whole family would like to do right now.