Week 3 project development 12.02.20
The struggle is real. My 24-70 is dead. Totally dead, and I have no money to buy another, and I love this lens. I have decided to leave in all of the images I have shot this morning, as they appear straight out of camera, in order of how they were taken with none missing to show how much of an effect this is having.
Where the images jump from way over exposed to way under exposed, the settings were exactly the same, but that is the ‘broken lens’ and what effect it is having on the images.
I have had to edit my settings to get the results I want by using this insane amount of brokenness of my lens , it’s the weirdest ‘accidentally experimental’ way of working ever.
I have to engage my zoom slightly or the camera doesn’t connect ( this is obviously a connection port issue) and the images will be totally black. Every few images it super over exposes for no reason whatsoever, the iso inparticular isn’t doing what it should be doing at all. However, with lots of patience and tweaking, and trust in my ability to be able to work around it, I did eventually manage to get two images I am happy with.
These images are a commentary on me, as a woman, as a mother, as a home educator, the state of my ‘self’ trying to do the MA, home educate the children, get one through levels, one through GCSE’s, get them all to their groups and clubs, struggling with not working on my business because I am too busy, whilst simultaneously doing drives for my husbands long distance taxi company because we are so broke from me not working ….. it is all rolled up into these images ……
The first images are of our shed which is battered and broken and leaning precariously after the recent storms. It represents the ‘building site’ our house currently is, and the anxiety for how that makes me feel. It is also a commentary on how I feel like our whole house is in this precarious balancing act at the moment, and could topple at any minuet.
The second set of images are of the room that I was setting up to do the ‘reward chart shoot’ tableau in. It too is a commentary on how I am feeling in myself at the moment. The bare just plastered walls , the floor still dirty from work being done on the house, the dodgy and dangerous electrics. The ‘school room’ set up, that looks all aesthetic and pretty with pretty maps and books, and the irony of learning about the world, whilst those shadows make you feel claustrophobic , and the juxtaposition of that with the light streaming in from the outside, and the open door. The irony of learning about the outside world, whilst being encaged by our partaking in the ‘system’ of degrees, and a-levels , and GCSE’s , and the deep rooted desire for us to all run out of that door and escape this self imposed torture. The door open and the empty chair, and book looking like it has just been put down and abandoned, could imply that someone has just got up and just left, and is definitely a representation of what my whole family would like to do right now.
Neither of these images were planned at all, but are representation of what I am going through at the moment and were spur of the moment decisions.
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